The What If’s

It is 8:36 PM on a cloudy cold Thursday. I am buried under textbooks and paper work, stressed out about deadlines and what ifs? I couldn’t even tell you where I am about to start…

That’s a lie. I’m starting here. Sorry homework and work you’re on the back burner. No, I am not a procrastinator but recently I just see the “DUE” tomorrow more as “DO” tomorrow. Typically, I am a very motivated individual and get things done way ahead of time, but this, being my last term of school I am drastically lacking in that department. So much, that in fact yesterday I found myself cleaning out my sock drawer. Usually people refer to this as an analogy but I was literally matching various colors of polka dot socks.

The lack of motivation initially came upon me this Tuesday when my professor asked who read the 3 chapters (102 pages) of the textbook this weekend and the assigned cases. Now, first off let me give you the background of my week. I work full-time while also taking 20 credits. A full-time student is defined as being enrolled in 15 credits. As a organization guru with a knack of planning ahead, my schedule is prearranged to the point of when I shower. Take those 102 pages of dry, boring and long textbook readings which were to be read as of Tuesday and schedule that into my weekend. Realistically, it was read or shower and eat. We all know which won…

Did I feel bad? I mean sure, I paid $227 for that textbook. I’m practically costing myself money. Then this morning, my professor shows an hour long YouTube video on compassion for a history of globalization class. Keep in mind this is the same teacher who introduced the class with a twenty seven minute South Park clip. Is college the biggest scam or is that just what the articles persuade me to believe? Sometimes I take a step back and again, wonder the what if’s..

For example:

What if I was to approach my teacher and hand him an invoice for $94.45 essentially asking for a refund of the time it took away from my learning. That South Park episode I watched with my brother a year ago (which was completely inappropriate to show at a University) should not be an acknowledged form of academia.


What if I assigned my professor with readings from new technological companies on articles which are benefiting the future generation instead of cases that happened a hundred years ago. Sorry you do not know what a 3D printer is, or the basic fact of how to mute your cellular device during class.

The what if ‘s can be transformed into a business term which we refer to as opportunity costs. If this, than what are you giving up. Here is a question I have for you; if you were given the power to change one thing in the world, whether it be for you or someone else, what would it be and why?

Now, some of you might be thinking: I wish money did not control my life and make decisions for me, while others are wishing for world peace and yes, spring is right around the corner ladies so some of you are wishing for that perfect bikini body while consuming a mass amount of pizza.

Let’s back up a second, I am straying away from my main issue in this post, and that is my lack of motivation. But is it something that can be hindered or in my case demotivating me in these situations. Here I am, writing a fairly lengthy blog post in a matter of an hour but if you were to put my homework in front of me I would run and maybe even come clean out your sock drawer. The biggest question I have for you is; HOW do you motivate yourself? What transforms an awful agenda into something that you can look forward to?

I had lunch with a good friend today and she put it in perspective for me; you’re either all in or not and our generation is so obsessed with that idea essentially leading to addiction. Am I addicted to motivation? Is that possible? Who knows.  Now, she also told me don’t be too busy making a living that you forget to make a life. It’s like she wants to be a psychologist or something (funny that I say that, it’s her major).

Thinking back on it, she could not have pinpointed it better.

Motivation can come from all sorts of things. However, it is up to you to grasp onto it and keep it.




One thought on “The What If’s

  1. Excellent post. Your writing is fun and refreshing.
    Yes, hand your professor an invoice. He deserves it.
    I have no idea which part of the world I wish to change: improve self-esteem of teenage girls, empower them; cause racial blindness in everyone on the planet; remove hate from hearts; create an amazing dessert that TASTES like a million sweet calories but fights cancer.
    I self-motivate by sheer willpower. Being committed to the end result helps: I haven’t consistently exercised in three years. Two nights ago I woke up at 3 am to use the loo, and returned to bed. My heart pounded as if I’d just run down the block for much longer than I think is healthy. I’ve been up and out walking the last two mornings. I don’t want to die young and out of shape, if there’s something I can do differently.
    Keep writing.

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